goodcheer

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 23:24:43 GMT

I'm on a reading kick (finally). Today I finished Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer. It was an amazing novel and I highly recommend it. After I finished it, I actually had to leave my class because I started to cry. So great. Ahh. I didn't go to work today (Marcos went in for me), so I just relaxed instead. Lindsay came over and it was really nice. We drank tea and laid in bed and giggled and it felt like she still lived here. I miss that a lot. Then Jenni and Dennis came over, followed by Cayce. I don't think I really left my bed once until we went out to eat. Now I'm home and I'm trying to forget about this paper I have to write that's due in a week. I'm trying not to think about how chapped my lips are and how bad my throat hurts, too. I wish I were going to the Y tonight. I have a sip left of Earl Grey (I've acquired a taste for it---before it was too smoky), then I guess I'll make some more tea and curl up in bed. Also, a shower. That's second on the list.

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 03:05:32 GMT

i'm in love and i miss my friends and i'm sorry i'm not fun or funny anymore. i want to watch girly movies and maybe grow my nails instead of bite them so that one day i could paint them but i wouldn't know what color to pick and i think my lips are bleeding and i just finished a paper and i ate really good rice for dinner and tomorrow are exams and i'm in love and i miss my friends.

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 00:08:53 GMT

A simple objection is not enough, prove your disgust.

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 02:07:46 GMT

We are alive, so we've gotta live life to the fullest.

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 03:43:10 GMT

his films were more about the loneliness of modern living and love as the only hope of salvation

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 03:33:58 GMT

I just keep listening to Heroin by the Velvet Underground over and over and over again and it's in my head and there are so many things in my head that I can't say and that I wouldn't even really be able to say but it'll get better and I think it'll be okay one day and I need to stop thinking negatively and start thinking positively. Constant fucking internal struggle. I wish that I was born a thousand years ago. I wish that I'd sail the darkened seas on a great big clipper ship going from this land here to that in a sailor's suit and cap away from the big city where a man cannot be free of all of the evils of this town and of himself, and those around. Oh, and I guess that I just don't know. Oh, and I guess that I just don't know. Heeeeeerroooooinnnn.

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 03:52:19 GMT

Tonight I came across a short stack of Kodachrome slides from my Nana's wedding, along with a slide viewer. This one slide. It was just so perfect I couldn't help but cry. There are so many things I want to ask her. Things I never got the chance to say. I want to ask her about her wedding, and not just see a few pictures from it. I want to know how she felt that day. Ask her what her childhood was like and how the world has changed and what she thinks about it. When she died I didn't really cry, because the cancer had already made her lifeless. I cry every once and awhile thinking about it and her and how yellow she was when I saw her last. She was so beautiful. I miss her.

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 03:24:48 GMT

school is going. driving up to Boston on the 21st for a long weekend.

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 17:56:14 GMT

school tomorrow. birthday and license two days after. bye, summer.

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 03:47:39 GMT

Everyone's a phony! Ha! Done with everything. Leaf. HA YEAH

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 16:38:32 GMT

we've been waiting all year for someone to just say, "everyone fucks up, it's going to be okay."

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 05:24:07 GMT

after one long season of waiting,
after one long season of wanting,
i am breaking open.
my insides are pink and raw.
and it hurts me when i move my jaw,
but i am taking tiny steps forward.
and i... i feel sure that my wounds will heal.
and i, i will bloom here in my room.
with a little water.
and a little bit of sunlight.
and a little bit of tender mercy,
tender
mercy.

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 18:42:56 GMT

Why is my head fucking with me so much? My sleep pattern is fucked. I can only think about two or three things. Self-hate, man. At its best.

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 08:31:08 GMT

I can't stop watching The Office. It just keeps getting better and better. Right now it's 4:30 in the morning and I should definitely be sleeping......but I can't stop. Watching. Fuck. Oh my god.

schedule

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 00:41:31 GMT

Q1
Radio 1
CAP: AIDS/Discrimination (822)
AP Human Geography (820)
Classical World (822)

Q2
Radio 1
Media Literacy (642)
AP Human Geography (820)
Classical World (822)

Q3
Astronomy (100)
Intro to Sociology (818)
AP Human Geography (820)
World Lit: Europe and Latin America (804)

Q4
Health 12 and OTS 2 (712)
Project Adventure (FLD3)
Intro to Psychology (919)
Modern Drama (806)

It is going to be a very good senior year.

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 01:24:49 GMT

Learned how to drive stick tonight. Supposedly, in terms of just starting out, I'm the best in my family.

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 08:09:09 GMT

It was perfect.

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 11:44:45 GMT

All-nighter #1. Gonna give veganism a second try? I had forgotten how great the Half-Blood Prince was. Feels good. Bear vs. Shark is a great fucking band. I can tell you that much. Fuck, man.

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 20:08:33 GMT

Boy, it began to rain like a bastard. In buckets, I swear to God. All the parents and mothers and everybody went over and stood right under the roof of the carrousel, so they wouldn't get soaked to the skin or anything, but I stuck around on the bench for quite a while. I got pretty soaking wet, especially my neck and my pants. My hunting hat really gave me quite a lot of protection, in a way, but I got soaked anyway. I didn't care, though. I felt so damn happy all of a sudden, the way old Phoebe kept going around and around. I was damn near bawling. I felt so damn happy, if you want to know the truth. I don't know why. It was just that she looked so damn nice, the way she kept going around and around, in her blue coat and all. God, I wish you could've been there.

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 03:06:14 GMT

tired, but that's okay because it's summer. being with you is my favorite past time. I can't stress that enough.

things that make me feel good

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 18:49:40 GMT

-lying in bed alone
-lying in bed all day with Corey
-when my mom gives me hugs
-bike rides
-staying up late
-learning something new from my dad
-car rides with Brian
-napping
-going out to eat with Pat at Lisa's Deli
-family dinners when it's me, my mom, and my brothers and all we do is tell dirty jokes and laugh (hasn't happened in a very long time)
-knowing that summer starts Wednesday

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 18:40:00 GMT

I can't stop myself from being angry and annoyed and frustrated at everything and everyone. I want to lock myself away entirely and sleep and read books and fill my brain and not have to talk to everyone every second and have to listen to all the bullshit out of everyone's fucking mouth. I'm sick of immaturity and I'm sick of high school and I keep thinking about wasted youth and how I'm just going to die and none of this will ever matter. I can't laugh anymore. I'm sorry that I'm not sorry. It's just hard to cheer up.

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 03:06:08 GMT

i'm sad a lot and i'm still trying to figure out what that means.

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 23:26:22 GMT

2nd Annual School-End Extravaganza!
June 20th, 2007
12pm-?

Scavenger Hunt! (meet outside HCRHS Commons at 12pm)
Music! (Anyone can play, acoustic only)
Food! (Please contribute something, if you can!)
Outdoor Activities! (Kickball, frisbee, wiffle ball...)
Sleeping under the stars!

Tell your friends!

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 01:18:40 GMT

School's almost over. That's all.